♥他和她的故事

finally i've gt the time to blog.
there are many thing happening this few days..
im goin crazy soon . hais
about adrian i will tok abt ltr on =(

last fri suppose to mit him but quarreled so nvr.
stayed hm the whole day.
mit up ah xing in the midnite ard 1 am at yewtee
he taught mi alot abt "business"..
i was so enthu tt we tok until morning 8am LOL..
supposed to mit michelle go out de but she put bomb!
so stayed home again..
hais thn at nite quarrel again ...
sunday didn't mit him.. or shud i say we realli ended?
i was so stress and disappointed when i saw something..
anyway i went out to mit ah xing at yewtee
we took train to lot one.
dine at a hong kong cafe..
after tt bought food fr my sis and headed hm.
my sis is crazy .. ah xing tok oni she kip laugh =.=
ah xing waited fr my mum to come hm..
tok to my mum till lyk 1 am plus omg..
i was in the rm watching gong zhu xiao mei ha ha
thn xing came in tok to mi until 3am plus thn leave..

hmm next day supposed to mit michelle but she couldn't make it agn.
so mit lia lia instead.. before i leave my hse i notice
my hands and legs gt rashes omg..
damn itchy and uncomfortable.. duhno why suddenly will haf..
i kip complain to cecilia ha ha
we took bus dwn to fareast..waited fr lia to do her
mani and pedicure..
i was at the shouting fr help cus reali damn itchy
thn the auntie pass mi feng you(oil) to apply
after jiu ok le ha ha..hmm vivian called mi
and i went dwn to LJS mit her eat together.
after tt pei her go 7 eleven buy maggie fr adon thn
went up to coco bongo pass to her.
and went to find lia as she finished doin her pedi le..
after tt we walked ard..went over wisma m]phosis
cus lia wan buy slipper .. headed to cine after tt..
played pool and dine at hong kong cafe..
hmm i oni ate the dessert..damn nice ha ha
after tt took train hm ..
tuesday i think i was at hm ba.. cant rmb
wed edwin called mi and ask mi go cwp find him
so i went prepared and mit him and his fren thr..
we took train dwn to vivo.. mit up with hazel and sophia
went to forever 21 walk walk and try clothes..
after tt walk ard deciding wat to eat lol..
edwin and his fren din join us they walk their own
as they dun wan to eat.
we went over to harbour front eat pastamania..
haha.. after tt went bk vivo kopitiam find edwin and his fren
hazel went to fetch thomas come find us too.
hmm after tt walk walk ard jiu go home le..
took train bk with edwin..
rch hm damn boring ..
called amber and conference with edwin..
after i put dwn the phone..
i broke dwn,realli cried so badly bcus i cant find him
his line was cut.at that moment i feel tt
he's gone =(
& yst didn't go out.i jus wan to kip myself at hm.
hais im lost , totally lost

i feel tt i cant trust him animore.
i dun feel secure too..
when i found out tt he lied to mi
im totally disappointed...
i realli dun wan him to go.my heart hurts T.T
i dun wan him to feel tt whenever he do wrong,
i've to forgive him.. it will become a habit to him
and its reali veri unfair to me.
im realli confused..i wan him but yet i cant trust him
anymore..
we've been together for 1year9 month plus alrdy.
gone thru alot alot.. mayb more bad times thn happy ones.
but i still love him as much as before.
i might be veri unreasonable but what i do oways have a reason
for it.
i treat him better thn i treat my frens..
what he want i will gif.
everything i do i place him first.
i reali duno wat i do wrong to deserve all this.
u are a bf to mi not a liar..
why u kip telling lies making mi to lost trust in you?
u tell one lie , u have to tell another lie to cover the
first lie.. isn't this true?
i realli hate to pretend that im happy.
all i want is happiness am i asking too much?
i've nvr expect him to do anithing for mi before.
i hate it when he scold mi as his mind is not "consious".
i hate it when he spend his money lyk running water.
i hate it when he play dota.
i hate it when i tok to him and he dun bothered to ans mi.
i seriously hate myself.i am nt a gd gf =(
i've been tolerating all the bad things abt him.
but i realised tt he had reached my limit.
if it carry on thr will be no ending to it,
& i'll be at the losing end.
sometimes i asked myself,what i love about him,
what he do that makes me fall so deeply for him &
am i really happy being with him?
i jus cant find answers to it.
his promise to me are all lies..
telling mi"this will not happen again" since the first time
till now he is still saying this.
hais.. i really duhno wat to do.
he leaving for thailand this sunday already ..
i guess oni cn get to mit him after 3-4 weeks ltr..
will his or my heart chg?
for mi,i cn oni say he's the oni guy i will oni love.

HAIS WHAT SHOULD I DO !!!!!!!!! =(

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